A Troubled 15 Year Old by CloudNumber8, literature
Literature
A Troubled 15 Year Old
Father has a lady friend
Of ill gotten gains
Sells her body for money
A handful of change
There will be no benefit
For my family
On hotel bedside tables
You'll find our money
Mother has a habit
Leaves needles lying around
Down the side of the sofa
Where infant hands slide down
Hoping to find some money
A handful of change
A perfect family portrait
And I am the frame
A troubled fifteen year old
Born under a bad sign
I learnt like most children
To cry before I smiled
In time my smile will fade
Though the tears will remain
I fear for the things I will lose
Before my family change
I am gay.
I'm not a disease, I'm not a problem
I'm not an affliction
I don't need treatment.
I don't need help
I'm not sick
I'm not confused
I'm not a sin.
I am gay.
I'm your daughter
Your sister
Your friend
Your co worker
Your classmate
Your acquaintance
A complete stranger
I am gay.
I need love, just like you
I need smiles
I need support
I need a hug
I need a friend
I need a family
I need acceptance
I need understanding
I need you
I am gay.
I know what love is
I know what pain is
I know what hate is
I know what life is
I am gay.
And I need you to love me
The same way you loved me before you knew
I am gay.
She walks along the corridor
"Freak"
"Nerd"
"Fat"
"Ugly"
She's crying
She wants to go
Anywhere,
Anywhere at all
She walks into an empty classroom
And collapses into the first chair
"Weirdo"
"Loner"
She cries
Hitting her head against the desk
"GET OUT
LEAVE ME ALONE"
Insults keep on throwing themselves
at her.
She stands up and
leans her head against the window
Stares at the sun until her eyes hurt
Until her head hurts
"You're disgusting"
"You're horrible"
Interrupted by
A knock on the door
And a group of girls walk in
"You ok?"
"We were looking for you"
"Why did you go running off like that?"
She stands up str